I am starting this blog at a particularly difficult moment in my life. The past few months have been very rough.
I lost a parent, shortly after my other parent was newly diagnosed with cancer.
It sounds like some kind of stage tragedy, but unfortunately this is my current reality.
I think most people I have interacted with would have no idea that I have been through some really tough times. To them, I probably seem normal – and perhaps even cheerful – most of the time. I have not told that many people about what happened, because these are difficult things to talk about.
A few months ago, it felt as though all hope was lost and that a part of me died a little on the inside. It was my biggest heartbreak to date – one that involved the two most precious people I had known all my life.
I am now at a point where I am no longer crying so much anymore. I think I probably have not cried enough in the first place, and that is probably unhealthy. I guess it was too shocking to the system at first, and my mind still had not accepted or processed it all because it was so sudden. I was also trying to be strong for my mum.
Today, I am starting this blog to give myself the space to document my thoughts and to reflect on my life experiences and the lessons learned. My hope is that, in sharing my thoughts on this platform, at least one person will benefit from my posts in some way.